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Friday, October 05, 2012


“Heavenly Father, are you really there?  And do you hear and answer every child’s prayer?”

 I won’t lie. . . I have felt like I have been neglected and forgotten.  I have felt like my prayers weren’t making it past the ceiling.  Since my prayers are falling back down unheard on my bed then it is no shock that I feel like I haven’t received an answer in just as long.  I’ve been making some life altering decisions and it makes it all the more stressful not really knowing. 

“Pray, He is there.  Speak, He is listening. You are His child.”

Most of the time it isn’t the big things that happen, but the small and simple ones that brings hope back into my heart and help me continue the fight forward.  My new bishop in my new ward called me into his office a couple of Wednesdays ago.  I went in a bit nervous because this ward has the 2nd largest primary in the world and they had just released a handful of women from there to put them into the new Relief Society presidency. 

Want a whole bunch of honesty?  Well I’m dishing it out anyway.  I don’t want to be, nor am I emotionally fit to have a calling in the primary.  Don’t get me wrong, I love children.  I adore my nieces and nephews.  However I am at a point in my life where I am fighting with all my might not to become bitter.  See where it might not be a great plan to have me in the primary?  Well I have this whole speech concerning the reasons why it probably wouldn’t be a wise idea to put me in the primary, but that IF that is where the Lord truly desired me to be, I would accept even that calling.  It is a speech that I never delivered.

The bishop immediately put me at ease when the first words out of his mouth were, “I didn’t schedule this appointment to issue you a calling.  I just want to get to know you.  I typically go into new members homes to do this but I didn’t know how you would feel about that since you are a single sister.”  Every part of me relaxed and I filed the speech away for another time . . . no need to give it if this wasn’t about a calling.

We chatted for about an hour about the typical first meet-and-greet kind of things.  Suddenly he got a very serious look on his face and I went into complete panic when he said, “I really didn’t call you in here to issue you a calling, but I am feeling very inspired to issue you this calling.”  My hands started sweating and my heart about went dead. . . BUT I HADN’T GIVEN HIM MY SPEECH!!!  I sat there dead silent not even knowing what to do or say when he said, “I would like to issue you a calling to serve as our Gospel Doctrine teacher.” 

Automatic calm washed over me and a warm blanket of love was draped over my shoulders as Heavenly Father gently reminded me that He KNEW me and He didn’t need the speech.  After months of wondering if I was truly all alone, I got the one thing that He knew I wouldn’t miss as a quiet answer to that prayer. 

Now as crazy as it seems, this calling is my favorite.  I truly enjoy serving in this capacity.  Furthermore, as I drove home I realized that since I was 19, every single time I have changed wards this is the calling that I receive.  It is a calling that allows me to quickly get to know a huge number of ward members and to even more quickly get involved in the ward.  Being on my own, that is something that is of huge importance.  I also realized that I have never been in the calling long enough to teach an entire year.  I am always moved onto another calling before that happens.  This is the fourth time I have had this opportunity to serve as a Gospel Doctrine teacher and I look forward to it for however long it lasts.      

4 Comments:

  • How did I know that is the calling you got? Let me just say I think there is one more reason that you are always called as Gospel Doctrine teacher...because you are so darn good at it! Truly, you are amazing. I'm so glad you got such a wonderful calling, and more than a little jealous of your ward.

    By Blogger Russ and Em, At 5:02 PM  

  • What a neat experience to be reminded that Heavenly Father knows you and loves you. Good luck with your new calling! I hope you feel right at home in your ward as you get to know more people.

    By Blogger Aubrey, At 4:39 PM  

  • You will be fantastic, B! Good luck.

    By Blogger C.J., At 10:12 PM  

  • You have been preparing for this as you have scoured and read and loved and digested your Quad this year. You are amazing and I am thrilled to know that Heavenly Father wasn't sending you a trial. Love Ya!

    By Blogger Gatlin Gang, At 10:15 PM  

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