Time

 

Saturday was exactly one year since my mom had her emergency heart surgery.  While pondering all the events that occurred that week, I again went through the many emotions that bombarded me that short period in my life.   That is an eye-opening experience. 

 

Honestly the memory is fuzzy because I moved through the entire thing in a surreal world.  The thought that there was a possibility of losing my mom was too much for me to wrap my world around.   Death to that point had never been anything frightening to me nor was it anything new to me.  I have lost all my grandparents on both sides.   The difference was there were still so many things that I wanted my mom to be here to experience with me.  However, I have total faith in the Plan of Salvation and so there was always a constant comfort in my mind.  

 

As I was going through the situation I came to the conclusion that I don't think people truly know the affect that they have in others lives.   There were so many people gathered to support us.  There were prayers being said and fasting taking place by more than just family members.  Friends reached out and made an impact that will never be forgotten.  I would have never made it through the distress without the long talks and the phone calls just to make me laugh and take my mind off the situation.   I was lifted and allowed to lean when I just didn't think I could do it anymore.

 

It continues to amaze me that they continue to fight to help me in every situation in my life.  I am not an open book.   I don't like to share my frustrations and trials.  I would rather just quietly take care of things the best way that I think possible.   I am stubborn, but I am slowly learning that I get through difficult times more unscathed when I allow those who truly care about me in to help me. 

 

Thank you!  I am a stronger person because you are in my life and if you weren't there, well life just wouldn't be as happy and I would miss you with every part of my heart!