Reassurances from a loving Father in Heaven pour down like a warm summer rainstorm, drenching my heart and reminding me . . .

It has been a little over a year, or maybe just inching up to a year, at least for me. My memories seem to bring back October as when the overwhelming thoughts, feelings and incredibly sacred moments began to transpire. I am familiar with the Spirit being involved in my life, but there was more depth, more intensity involved. There has been more reassurance and comfort than I ever have known is even possible and definitely not deserved on my part.

I know what I know because I have been given the knowledge. I don’t understand most of it and really it leaves me more confused than ever before. However any doubt that I have allowed in and sometimes doubts that I have personally forced in because I think that I really need to take a huge bite out of reality have immediately been washed away. I have never been in this position before of completely knowing just how involved Heavenly Father is in MY life. Believe me when I tell you that I am far from deserving it because I have been extremely angry with Him. He has patiently listened to hurricanes of nothing but grief come out of my thoughts and mouth only to wrap me gently in His arms and calm the storms within me.

I know what I know and I have been given promises. Promises that my scope of vision cannot possibly comprehend coming to pass, but I am not able to see as He sees. So He sends me droplets of His vision as tender mercies.

“Yea, and he looketh down upon all the children of men; and he knows all the thoughts and intents of the heart; for by his hand were they all created from the beginning.” Alma 18:32

“For the spirit speaketh the truth and lieth not. Wherefore it speaketh of things as they really are, and of things as they really will be; wherefore, these things are manifested unto us plainly, for the salvation of our souls.” Jacob 4:13

“I testify that God is a God of truth. He cannot lie, and all of His promises will be fulfilled. This fact fills my soul with gratitude. I know that all of this is possible because of the atoning sacrifice of our Savior. I also know that our Father reveals His will to us through His Son and through His prophets.” Elder Walter F. Gonzalez

These are a mere three of the thousands of droplets that I have received . . . two of which have been within the last couple of weeks.

I awoke from a dream this morning that normally would have thrown me into a loop causing me to be dizzy, however I woke up instead calm and trusting. In part I was walking down the church hallways with a very small girl holding my hand. I knew that she wasn’t mine but she was extremely attached to me and I knew that she loved me, as I loved her. We walked through a door which placed us in the Celestial Room at the San Diego temple.

My attention was immediately drawn to the balcony above me. There, all dressed in their wedding attire stood so many faces of those that I love so dearly. Multiple generations of two different families, mine being one of them of course and dear friends from across the timeline of my life. The concourse of people that were in the thousands and yet I could distinctively pick out each face glowing with smiles. Then I instinctively knew why I was there. A love filled me from the top of my head right down the tips of my toes. I knew. I looked down into that little child’s eyes and woke up.