Just Rannin' Around

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Keeping it on the down low

I thought that I would be able to do it.  I thought wrong.  Naturally I am not a quiet person. . . . understatement of the year.  I am not one that can sit on the back row and slip in and out unnoticed.  I, even though I will try to deny it for many reasons, need people. 

I'm in my new house.  One of the things that I thought I would do is keep a low profile.  No need to let anyone else in my life and I work so much that it should have been an easy feat.  The ward is absolutely ginormous and so it should have been even easier to hide out there.  I came to an area that slipping into the cracks should have been easier than not. 

That lasted all of about three seconds.  I don't know how not to know those around me.  I have met my neighbors and already a large handful of the ward members.  Although I still feel a bit out of place, I can feel the desire of needing friends pulling on me like the magnetic force of the sun.  I don't know how to do this life on my own even though I am fairly certain that it would be easier on me if I could.

My house is getting set up so slowly that I am hoping that it will be done by the end of the year.  Pretty sad when putting a house together becomes a long term goal.  I am getting a bid on having my basement finished on Tuesday.  It is where I am going to put another master bed/bath, a large dry storage, an additional family room with a large entertainment center and my two must haves . . . a workout room and a library.  I figure that although I can't have exactly what I want, I can at least have some comforts.  You can't buy happiness, but as sad as it sounds, it helps.  Hey I'm only being honest.*

My house is starting to feel more like home as I slowly get things put away and feel a little more like it really is mine.  I think the preverbal frosting on the cake will be when I finally decide where the pictures are to be hung and get them up on the wall.  I am discovering that where to hang the pictures is my toughest decisions to be made.  The only automatic, no brainer is the one piece of artwork.  It has will always have its place no matter where I live.  It shouldn't anymore, but it does and for some reason I know that it always will. 

I think that I am going to try to not put holes in the walls with nails.  I am going to try to use the magic of 3M to hang the pictures.  Has anyone ever used them?  Want to come show me how to use them?!  :)

*Anyone that truly knows me knows that I would give up every worldly thing that I have to gain the blessings of a family of my own.  What I'm saying is that since I am not in that place in my life, I am being grateful for the blessings which I have been given.  I have been able to enjoy some of the monetary comforts but only by working my hindend off every single day. 


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